WHAT I NEED MY FAMILY TO KNOW

My little family and premium romanian I love you. I am definitely by no means perfect, but I promise that I do try my hardest. I want you to know that even if I'm frustrated or impatient I still and will ways love you.  You are all the best things that have ever happened to me…sometimes a lot of work but still my treasures.  I want the best in the world for you, I want you to be happy, healthy and if I could shield you from any and every bad thing I would... From man colds:) to hurt feelings. Instead I am trying to make our home a haven where you can always feel safe, loved and where we can grow and learn as a family, I cringe a little as I write this because there have been a few of those days where my patience has left and I am not the mom I dreamed I would be... But I am trying...anyway just so you know every night when your all tucked in I pray that tomorrow I will be better.  I LOVE YOU ALL, love your mom and your wife xxoo

Oct 30,2013

IT SNOWED a skiff but enough that it's impossible to forget that old man winter is on his way.  I can't even convey how much I am not looking forward to winter this year, the thought of dressing up a 3,2 and 1 year old makes me physically cringe, mostly because I know how it's going to go.... I'll dress Mason first then, Abbie and finally Daniela it's in this order because Daniela ALWAYS undresses the minute I have her dressed, sweaters are off the minute I turn around...but this momma got smart and started putting her sweater on backwards...it's hard to get the zipper that way :), it works for now.  The problem this year is that Mason will probably have to use the washroom the minute we are all bundled up and by the time we leave the house probably Abbie and I will be in a puddle of sweat and I will be cursing under my breath.  There is however a silver lining, since we are Canadian we have to find fun things to do or we will go crazy, so since this is the first time in 3 years I'm not pregnant I'm actually excited to go skating on the canal, cross country skiing and possibly down hill as well.  

As for last night we went with Katie and her three little ones (Paige, Sloan and theo) to a Halloween party at the Rockland library.  It was so much fun the library really outdid themselves with all the work they did. There was a maze made out of cardboard with tunnels, there were craft tables that included everything from wands, masks, bats (using hands as templates) marshmallow mummies, spider webs plus marshmallow dipping station to make monsters and there were treats for everyone (that they made to look like brooms) it was such a great and fun night. So without further ado here's some pics of the fun night

We had an astranout, elephant (which kept shedding her skin) and an adorable skeleton 

              Playing with their wands

Saturday July 20, 2013

Today was family adventure day and with final destination being Sandbanks and Isaiah Tubbs with a stop in Kingston to check out the new Booster Juice and the space where the Dental office is going to be.  The kids traveled amazing and we stopped for lunch at the mall and Alin was super happy to see that there was a line up at the Booster juice and even more excited when we saw people walking around with Booster Juices in their hands:) money in the 💲bank💲

Then we headed off to check in to cabin and get changed and head to Sandbanks (I remember telling Alin when we first came here, that it made me feel like we were as close to Mexico  that we would ever be without leaving the country) we walked onto the beach and the kids were excited and a little hesitant.  Hanging onto Alin's shorts and just putting their toes in.  Fast forward 1/2 an hour and their running in and out of the water like mad men, Abbie's sitting on sand and enjoying the water crashing against here. It was GREAT and FUN and RELAXING.  We stayed for about 3 hours and then headed back to the cabin.  Ate in the enclosed patio and then...

Started with a phone call from Trina asking me if I'd heard from dad which got my mind racing and which is never a good way to start a conversation.  When I said I hadn't she told me Auntie Betty was in a car accident and had died.  She was going to Margie's house and so far that's all I know.  It seems so unreal especially since we were going to a family reunion 2 weeks from now which we haven't done since I was in grade 5 and I'm forty now so you do the math. My heart aches for Margie and Tracy and their little families.  She was one of the best aunts and I'll have to confess my favorite on the Waldie side.  She gave the best squishy hugs and always finished with a little squeeze to let you know she loved you, her sparkling eyes and spitfire personality plus I always thought she was beautiful.  A couple years back we had a surprise birthday party for my dad and and Auntie Betty was there and there and Margie and Tracy flew in with their kids.  It was a great weekend and a really good visit.  It's always so fun when those 2 (dad and auntie betty) get together.  Their laughs are infectious and its just fun. 

Later on when I learned that she was hit head on I was mad, when I didn't know what happened I could tell myself "Maybe she fell asleep, or hit the ditch" but when its the consequence of someone else s' actions it was so much harder for me to understand.  The other 2 were killed in the crash an older man and his wife but what transpired hurt are family and the ones I love. 

Then when we were snuggling down with the kids, Mason looked up at me and told me he didn't feel well... he didn't finish the sentence before there was projectile vomit everywhere, including me (YUCK) so we called housekeeping and they bought us new sheets and covers.  Then poor Abbie had a really bad fever, I spent the night in the enclosed patio holding our poor baby and praying for daylight. 

The next day Mason was on the mend and Abbie's fever was lower so we decided to stay and enjoy the beach some more before we headed home. 

WAITING..........

Why do we spend our whole lives waiting we eagerly anticipate growing older which includes turning 16 and being able to go on your first date.  For the record mine was horrid.  It was with Blaine Heggie and it was a double date.  He picked me up we went into Lethbridge, went to a bowling alley and then they decided it was too smokey for them.  Didn't seem to phase me, they should have been at some of my family functions:) Then went to a movie, about space which I hate and then went to eat but they didn't have enough money.  As we were driving home (45 min drive, felt like 2 hrs) he started talking about aliens.  YIKES I quickly pretended I was asleep and as soon as we made it down our lane I hoped out of that car like my seat was on fire.  Ran into the house, shut the porch light out and locked the door.  Probably not the most grown up response but it was my 16 year old self's flight or fight reaction.  Thank goodness they went up from there lots of fun stories to tell but that's for a different entry.  Then we can't wait to graduate from school, go to college, find that certain someone ( for me I went through 2 certain someones before meeting my perfect match) Can't wait for our first real job, paycheck, get engaged, get married, have babies.

We spend so much of our existence waiting for the next BIG thing instead of enjoying where we are and what we are doing now.  Hindsight is always perfect vision and I sure wish I could do things over again...but I can't and so we decide to enjoy the moments as they come, each new day, each adventure and try to slow down and enjoy the here and now and really being in the present.

So here's to me enjoying this stage I will need this reminder weekly no doubt but hey I'm a work in process

Oct 12,2013 Thanksgiving weekend

Top 10 thankful list:

In the spirit of thanksgiving here is my top 10 list...

1.  This family of mine, thanks to a boy who swept me off my feet... Come to think of it I'm still sweeping...every single night:)

Date at the good old hockey game, my heart still skips a beat when I see him walking toward me.  Isn't he handsome:)

                       MASON

                  DANIELA

                      ABBIE

2.  That this amazing body was able to carry 3 babes full term and healthy.  Although it's a little worse for wear at the moment, it's a work in progress.  That it was able to feed our babes, care for them on little or no sleep.  That I can walk and do all those mundane things that come along with parenting.   As Alin and I have just started getting back to exercising it feels great to sweat and move our muscles as well.  Thank you body!!!! ( that's Abbie in the inside)

3. The food we eat, farmers markets, upick strawberries, pumpkin patches I love that our adventures include going to outdoor markets, picking apples, picking strawberries.  How lucky we are to afford great, fresh,healthy food and (by lucky I mean how hard Alin works to supply as with these things) it's great in the summer too how every Friday we get vegetables delivered to our door from a coop service by one of Alin's patient.  My mom was impressed when Alin told her once "He'd rather spend money on good food now then medicine later one" 

4. Our house and rides our home is beautiful, warm and inviting and there's not a day that goes by that when I walk in the doors I don't feel gratitude and awe with it. I work hard at making our house a home with our little family, decorating for all sorts of holidays, crafts, neat and tidy (at least at one point of the day) but most importantly that Alin and I talk with respect and love to each other and our children. To make sure our home is a refuge from the world outside, that are little ones will always feel safe and loved here.   I love our front water feature and when the little waterfall is flowing I love the sound.  As for our rides, we've always had reliable, comfortable and dare I say luxurious vehicles, I love seat warmers!!!! I think of all the excursions we go on and I'm thankful for both.

Nice and cozy in their nice warm beds

5.  My family and the one I inherited growing up I knew I was blessed to be in my family.  Whenever people wanted to get together, they generally wanted to do it at my house... not because it was fancy or new or we had stuff but because it was always warm, fun and inviting.  As long as I could remember people were always welcome in our home and another chair pulled up to the dinner table or another blanket put on the couch (not for the guests, but one of us) my parents have always been an amazing example of kindness to everyone and acceptance.  Words can't even explain my love for them and my siblings.  It's fun, busy, loud and AWESOME when we all get together.  I used to feel sorry for people not in our family because of all the humour and love they were missing out on.  I kinda still do:) my goal in life is to be as friendly and neighbourly as my dad and as patient and kind as my mom.  Plus all the other characteristics of my siblings and their spouses.  

 Blessing of Abbie ( Alin even arranged this before had)

October Sunday 20th Stake Conference with a gong show

Today was stake conference and a gong show.  We made it there just in the nick of time.  Seated ourselves and waited to be spiritually uplifted.  Kids were good for about 1/2 hr and then Abbie had a little meltdown.  So Alin took her to the foyer and our little "Ivies" followed.  The nice thing about it is that the church set up tvs in other rooms to watch sat in there for awhile, devoured all snacks and then it was Dani's turn to be a turkey.  We left just with two speakers left.  Which was a shame because they are people that always give really good talks. Sometimes it's so hard not to get frustrated or throw my hands up in the air and say forget it.  Especially when I'm doing what I should and trying to teach my children, and for that matter my husband the importance of church things.  Some days it makes me wonder why I bother at all AND then I remember WHY... I do this because I want my family sealed FOR TIME AND ALL ETERNITY, I do it because I want my kids to know that they have a Heavenly Father that loves them, and will guide them, that they will never be alone, I do it because I believe that the teachings help us in our daily lives, to be the best version of ourselves that we can be, I do this because it gives me peace and calms my soul in times of trials, I do this because I want them to know the importance of Sunday, church, and the teachings in the bible and book of mormon.  I do this because my little growing family is the most valuable thing that I have.  

It's hard work and I feel the heavy weight of responsibility for our family.  To make sure our prayers are being said, that family home evening needs to take place, that they know the stories from the scriptures and that as I care for everyone's physical and temporal needs that their spiritual needs are met as well.  

Well kiddos "I love you this much..." And eagerly await the day that we are sealed together as a family.  "Sweet Dreams"